"This is an entry into the KTM Blog Competition"
--------------------------------------------------------------------------
I was going to school, lost deep in my thoughts, when
suddenly I heard a familiar voice calling me from afar. As I turned, I saw her
running towards me, with those gorgeous eyes and that beautiful smile. It was
Karen, the girl I had a crush on since I saw her that first day of school.
“So you didn’t wait for me today.”
I was taken aback. How did I not remember to wait for her
today?
“Must have slipped my
mind. I have a lot going on in my head right now.”
“Really? Why don’t you mind telling me what’s going on in
that brilliant head of yours.”
The problem was that I couldn’t. Even though we shared
everything, as she is my best friend (I’ll tell you about it later) and she
knew every deep dark secret about me, she didn’t know the one simple fact that
I was in love with her. I simply couldn’t tell her that I was thinking how I
would tell her I loved her.
“Nothing you could guess!” I replied.
She had her game face on. She knew everything about me
(well… almost everything) and started guessing like there was no tomorrow.
“Is it about games?”
“No” I replied.
“Is it about food?”
“Nope”
“Is it about your virtual pet?”
“Not even close!” I laughed. By the time we got to school,
she had guessed at least a thousand things (ok, maybe I exaggerated a little
there… it was about twelve). We went to our respective classes and promised to
meet during lunch.
During lunch break, I couldn’t find her anywhere. Fast
forwarding through to the end of the school day, I was waiting for her outside
the gate. What I didn’t know that she snuck up from behind and scared the
living stars out of me. After I gained my composure… and she was done laughing,
I asked her where she was during lunch, and if she found out what I was
thinking about in the morning.
She told me that her friend had an awful breakup and she was
there consoling her. And I thought “Ok… NOT the right time to talk about this.”
But she resumed the guessing game of hers. I always loved listening to her
voice, it just made me feel like I was in heaven.
And then finally she asked that question… “Was it about a
girl?”
I hesitated. There was a second of silence before I said no,
but she found out that I was lying.
“Sooo… Who is this mystery girl you were thinking about? Do
I know her? What is she like? I bet you like her don’t you?” She started asking
me so many questions, that my brain started to get confused and kind of
malfunctioned.
I said, without a thought, “You know her, and I do like her
a lot.” The second I said this, I was like,”What in the world is wrong with you
brain!!!! Now she’ll totally find out that it was her!!! God! I hate myself!!!”
But strangely, rather than guessing who it might be, she
went quiet and we walked for about five minutes with an awkward silence hanging
around us. Those five minutes were the longest five minutes of my life… Finally
she said, “So… this girl, you really like her?”
Gathering my strength, I said, “Yeah, I can’t stop thinking
about her at all… I’m always thinking about her, when I walk, study, play, and
even when I sleep.”
“Oh, okay….” She said, as her voice faded. I could see she
was sad, and once again, without thinking I said, “I think I have feelings for
you.”
We both froze. I froze because I realized what a stupid fool
I made of myself, and looking at her surprised expression, I didn’t know what
to make of it.
After a few more minutes of standing on the pavement with
that dreadful silence…. I couldn’t stand it anymore and said, “I always had
feelings for you. You were the one person I could open up to completely, and
tell all my secrets to. I know it’s kind of subtle, but how do you feel about
me?”
She just stared at me. It looked like she wanted to say
something, but couldn’t. After what seemed like an eternity, she said, “I’ll
think about it.” And she walked home as I stood there thinking about how I may
have destroyed a perfectly good friendship.
I walked home slowly, thinking about all the possible
scenarios that could happen, when I saw Karen, changed to her normal clothes,
standing in front of the gate to my house. It looked like she wanted to go in
but was holding herself from going in. I came up to her and she saw me coming.
We stared into each other’s eyes and then finally she said, “You know, I like
you too. And I do feel like there is a deeper connection between us than this
state we are in. But I’m scared to explore this other feeling I have for you….
I don’t know what to do….”
“What does that mean for us then?” I asked.
We exchanged glances, she smiled, and…. Then I woke up.
It was all a dream. I didn’t know how to react to that. I
looked at the time. It was already half past seven. I got dressed, had my
breakfast and started walking to school, lost deep in my thoughts, when
suddenly I heard a familiar voice calling me from afar……..
